vulnerability.
Definition? Susceptible to physical or emotional injury.
There is so much vulnerability in love and I’ve actually heard people call it beautiful. I guess I could see it in a way, you open yourself up to a person and let them have your all no matter what, even if you get hurt. Then the down fall comes and you’re open to an even bigger pain, having them taken from you. That’s not beautiful, no good can come from that, there is no upside and I would be in jail if something happened to Danny because of someones doing. But then I remember we have kids and he wouldn’t want that, so I would have to hire someone.
When you open yourself up to someone, you open a door that one day, you could lose them. I’ve been thinking about it all week, I’ve actually cried over it, ( Hormones? I don’t know) but if something happened to Danny, I don’t know how I could ever just live. Things happen to other people all the time, and I’m so afraid of him just leaving me here alone. It might be really really selfish, but I think “who could even make me feel the way he does? Who’s heartbeat would I fall asleep to? Who could love me like he does?” I’ll admit, we have problems, I’m sure everyone does, but when I think about it, when I’m driving, before I go to sleep, random times during the day, I think ” I’m so in love with that man.” and then my head is filled with horrible things that could take him away from me and I realize how vulnerable I’ve made myself and there is not turning back. I’ve never let my guard down so much with someone, I’ve never felt this, I never thought it could happen and I’m happy and terrified at the same time. I want to take him and just wrap him in bubble wrap and put him in a bubble.
You see? You turn crazy when you fall in love with someone.
NIGHTNIGHT by DEDDY
